Where do I go from here?
It has been 9 months since I have checked in with my gorgeous readers. A lot has happened in these 9 months, and no I did not have a baby. Although the timing of my check in seems like it. I should have learned my lesson from 2019 new years eve , that hoping for a better year in 2021 was going to be a disaster. It seems to me that life just keeps throwing me for a loop, and I keep yelling back, is that all you got? 9 months into this year of continued mayhem from the previous year, I sit here and think to myself, what the fuck am I going to do next? I feel stuck. My life feels like it is not moving forward, I am standing in an abyss of stillness. What is my next move? Do I wait for life to make the next move? Do I make the next move myself? So many questions, and I do not know how to answer them. I feel alone most of the time. Trying to manage my health, mental health, and in dealing with my parents, and watching the slow mental deterioration of both of them rea...